♥ Despair

最近心情很低落, 泪水也变得很泛滥. 我想说我只是一个十九岁的学院生, 我委屈求全只为了想要得到一辆车. 我说过我不需要新车, 你就说旧车很吃油. 现在有一辆新车, 不用给头期, 每个月也供很少. 我连供车的责任也背起来了, 只要你帮我出车油费, 为什么你还是不肯答应? 你能想下我的处境吗? 我还在读书的, 我只有周末是得空的, 我现在为了要供车, 我牺牲我的休息时间去打工, 难道还不够吗? 为什么你不肯帮我出其他的费用? 你知道我有多羡慕别人有车吗? 你知道我看着自己的技术越来越差, 每次都被人嘲笑, 我有多难受吗? 连她都受不了你了. 她甚至还来跟我道歉. 你知道我有多心酸吗? 或许我根本就不该抱有任何的希望, 这样我也不会失望, 也不会觉得一场欢喜一场空. 而你也让我明白了一件事, 我不会再失望, 因为我不再希望, 因为我已绝望了! 谢谢你让我明白这个道理.

♥ Infinity

我不是一个富有的人, 也不是一出世就咬着金汤匙的小孩. 我想要的东西, 往往不是父母买给我, 因为他们认为没有用, 所以我都要自己出钱买. 人类的需求真是无穷大. 我需要努力存钱才买得到我想要的东西. 但我连零用钱都不够用了, 我要怎么存钱? 我要怎么买我要的东西? 我不想, 也没勇气向父母讨更多的钱. 有时候明明就不够用, 可是却说我还有钱. 一个月要存也存不了多少钱, 那我什么时候才能得到我想要的? 如果要花上一年以上的时间才能得到一样我要的东西, 我觉得我花太久的时间了. 有时候我真的宁可放弃, 因为我根本就没有那个能力, 我何必不自量力. 总以为自己可以得到想要的, 可是却得不到. 希望越大, 失望越大. 为何我总是学不乖? 我真的好羡慕那些要风得风, 要雨得雨的富家子弟.

:'(

♥ A car

我想要一辆车, 一辆属于自己的车. 我知道以我现在的年龄, 我是买不起一辆车, 所以我必须靠他们. 我把要求降到最低, 我不需要新车, 一辆二手车我已满足. 就算他们买一辆我不喜欢的二手车, 我想我也无所谓了. 不是我出钱, 我没资格要求, 也没资格去不开心. 我只要一辆车. 我不想每次靠人, 不想每次都要人载, 不想我没交通时在那绞尽脑汁找交通, 找人载, 找人借车. 我厌倦了. 我不想去乞求人家借车, 也不想借人家的车来驾, 过下瘾. 我要我的驾驶执照是有用的, 而不是只收在钱包里的一个角落. 没有自己的车, 我就没有得驾车, 我的驾车技术就永远的保持在差的程度, 永远学不会如何退车和parking, 甚至忘了如何驾车. 或许也有人会觉得我没驾车是好的. 这样马路上就会少一个祸害, 而我自己也这么认为. 

很悲哀.

♥ Dessert

My sunday is always a boring sunday. Actually I'm the one who makes my day to become boring, because I seems like outing everyday in this week, don't wish to get mumbling from parents, so that's why I stayed at home. At night, I wish to go out for dessert. It's quite a long time I didn't have dessert. I went to my honeymoon, I thought the dessert will be delicious since quite a number of famous blogger recommended. But still, I feel the dessert there sucks! I love mango, my dessert always with mango, but the mango are sour -,- so yucksss! I think I'll never ever step into my honeymoon again. Nevertheless, gei dak sek is the best choice :) Char Siu and I went there for some food, and I take away dessert for my mum, I'm a good daughter. lol 

♥ The roommate

It's saturday! My darling, Char Siu and I spent our time at Tropicana City Mall. It's my first time been there :) I'm so sorry bcoz I'm late again, I didn't realize that my phone is out of battery, no one can call me, opsss! My fault. Saw a tiny shoulder bag, wanted to buy it so much, but I didn't zzz Saw a shark toy, wanted to buy it too, but still didn't zzz Then we went for movie, the roommate! An awesome movie, I feel like watching it again, without any reason. 

 ♥♥♥

At night, we went to 1u for dinner. After that, headed to Char Siu's house for mahjong :D

♥ Hair

I just came back from the saloon. My dear and I went to saloon for hair cut today. She dye her hair, makes me feel like wanna dye too, but I didn't bring much money and I didn't thought to change my hair color yet, but now I feel like wanna change it to orange color maybe? xp Women are always fickle, that's why I'm like that too. 1 second before I don't want to change, after 1 second I decided to change. lol! * craps -,- * Actually I've a strong feel to change my hair style, but I feel dismay. I asked the hairstylist, she said it doesn't look nice, so I didn't change it at last. I just trim away those dry and damage hair. My hair, please grow, please -,- I want a longer hair, so please grow! 

♥ The fierce wife

我终于看完犀利人妻这部台湾剧了. 一共23集. 还不错看啦 ~
从这剧里学了一些东西 - 女人一定要对自己好一点，一旦你累死了，就会有别的女人花你的钱，住你的房子，打你的小孩，睡你的老公。第 三者也可称为小三和家庭粉碎机。很有创意, 我喜欢! xp
这套剧的插曲也很不错, 介绍给你们听 :)

♥ Finally

Went to a new shopping mall which called Viva mall on the afternoon with my mum, uncle and cousin. We bought some umbrellas from mum's friend who doing business there. I feel like buying an umbrella for myself too, but I worry I won't use it -,- Didn't walk and shop around there, and I wanna go there again see whatcha having inside the mall. I guess I still rmb the way to go there, lol. At night, my cousin, Char Siu, Siew Mei and I went to Kepong village for buying some goods again. I bought a bag, which almost looked alike as my previous bag that already spoiled, I found it for so long and now finally I get it. FINALLY! =D So happy and satisfied. Then we went for movie, it's also a finally for me bcoz I finally have the chance to step into the cinema -,- The ghost must be crazy! I don't want to put the poster up bcoz I scare zzz lol. The first story is funny but the ending part, for me it's scary == The second story is just so so. Luckily tonight my cousin is sleeping with me, if not I worry I will have insomnia. lol

♥ Old

My uncle and my cousin came to my house today. My mum woke me up when both of them reached my house -,- It's 10 in the morning, gosh! I quickly prepared up everything because we're going to Sungai Wang. It had been a long time I didn't take bus from my home to other place, feel so strange and dislike when we have our own car but we didn't use it and then we use public transport zzz The main reason we went there is to buy some goods for my cousin's lil shop. We're lucky, we met friendly seller who willing to give us discount :) Then we went to mcd for some rest and tea time. Couldn't drink any soft drink because imma having flu, sore throat and cough :(  After tea time, we walked to Times Square and walk around there. I bought myself a pair of ear ring again at scorpion silver, satisfied! Char siu also came to Times Square and he bought chatime, so sad I couldn't get myself a cup of pearl milk tea :'( Then off to home and sleep because I feel so tired on my back and my leg, I'm old == because I feel tired and pain easily whenever I shop like the picture shown at above. lol

♥ Addict

Since my darling and my dear are not working today, and imma having holiday too, I decided to date both of them out since there is a long time we didn't hang out together instead of staying at home without doing anything :) We went to Sunway Pyramid, everytime only ts or sw, kinda bored :s Btw, I knew that there have chatime too, of course my dear and I craving for it, while my darling got her first try too. Teehee!

We didn't buy anything there, just did some window shopping. After that we went to Char Siu's house for mahjong. My darling finally learned how to play mahjong =D 1 more mahjong kaki now! Ngek ngek ~ Btw, my darling said she wanna buy mahjong O.O That's just the 1st time she touched mahjong, then she wanna buy already. Zomg! Seems like she addicted to it. Hahahaha! After mahjong session, we went to ss2 wong kok for dinner, too bad my dear can't join :( Then we went to pasar malam and I saw mahjong O.O I wanna buy... lol

♥ Darling's big day

Today is my darling's big day! 

I'm so sorry because today I only back from Thailand. But luckily we went back early, I still manage to celebrate her birthday at night. As her sis said she not really likes to eat cake and her dad already bought her a cake, so I gotta think other thing to gift her. My mind blinks out an idea, which I feel unique, that's sushi! lol. I knew it's weird, but who called she likes to eat sushi, this is the only thing I feel she will like it. I bought her 19 egg mayo, her favorites, i wish it's still, and another 2 types of sushi. Then Char Siu, Siew Mei and I went to her house and give her a small tiny surprise, but I think it's failed -,- The birthday girl was so busy watching her drama because it's the last episode * .......... *

Last but not least, Happy 19th Birthday to you, my bestie ever, my darling, I love u! ♥

♥ 3 days 2 nights Thailand trip

I'm back from Thailand, Hat Yai. It's my first trip abroad :) I went there with cy's parents and a gang of uncle aunties which are cy's dad friends. Btw, we went there by car, it's a long journey which had took us about 8 hours to reach there from kl. When we almost reach Thailand, I saw a numbers of sport cars passed by our car, too bad it's not lamborghini, lol! Lemme show u guys the pics :) 

We reached there roughly about 1pm. We stayed at Diamond Hotel. After checked in, we walked to the mcd nearby the hotel. I forgot what's complex named, but opposite this building there's another shopping complex named Central. We walked around this 2 complex and I bought souvenir for my darling and her sis first. 

Thailand mcd had mc cafe, but Malaysia don't have zzz 

These were large set, see how big the difference compare with M'sia mcd -,-

We had our dinner at a restaurant which was far from our hotel. It took us 45 minutes to the destination. After dinner, we went back to hotel and we went out again to the night market. We had dessert as supper too.

The 2nd day

We woke up pretty early for breakfast. We had our breakfast at the market. Then we walked around the market, nothing for me to buy because I'm not an auntie -,- Felt so tired and bored walking around there, so cy and I took dut dut car back to the hotel. Then I slept again. lol. After I woke up, we went to mcd again and walked around at the 2 complex again zzz I bought myself a shirt there. I also bought souvenirs which I felt unique for my friends and myself. At night, we sat dut dut car to another night market. Whoaaa! Finally I found somewhere nice to shop. I bought 3 shirts there and 4 tank tops which only cost 100 bath, so cheap! I bought new clothing for my phone too, teehee! 

The 3rd day

Woke up pretty early again for breakfast. Then we prepared to check out and back to kl. Too bad, we didn't went to duty free places :( 

♥ Shop and play

Went out with my dear Siew Mei on this afternoon. I've a strong feel to shop but I didn't bought anything useful, I'm just like buying some lap zap yeh :( I bought a passport cover which I need to use, a new mirror since mine already spoiled for some time, ear ring and ring from scorpion silver. My dear seems not going to buy anything except card holder, but ends up she bought more than me -,- lol. Since I'm at Times Square, of course I'll buy myself a cup of chatime :) Recently had been addicted to chatime. Teehee! After that we went to Char Siu's house for mahjong again. Luckily we didn't gamble because I just win few round per n round zzz so bad luck :(

♥ Money flies everywhere

Sushi King is having bonanza on 11 to 14 of April. Siew Mei, Char Siu and I had our dinner at Setiawangsa sushi king. Normally there'll be very less ppl, I thought that it wont be crowded like other sushi king outlet, but I'm wrong. When we reached there, we need to queue up and wait. I guess we waited for 45 minutes zzz I'm starving -,- We ate a lotsss, like not been eating for a month. Too exaggeration, I know, lol. 3 of us ate till our tummy also bulge up and saying hi to others xp After dinner, we went to Char Siu's house for mahjong. Lose till my mum also cant recognize me already =,= Sigh * I think my mahjong level still very low. I gotta improve it so that I wont lose more again. lol! 

♥ Power M needed

It's the 1st day of my holiday, but I need to wake up early for doing my passport. It's my 1st time step into the Jabatan Imigresen, nothing special because it just almost same with the place we make ic. Guess what, my height is 160cm, now only I knew my height is 160 but not 15+. lol! Making a new passport because I decided to go Thailand on this coming Friday. Expected to buy lots of stuff there since the things over there consider cheap, but the problem is power m limited -,- I wish I've enough money to buy what I wants to buy there, and of course souvenir for my darling and my dear. I guess if I didn't bought any souvenir, both of them will kill me -,- lol But I also need to buy some for my parents right... Uhm... I gotta plan carefully this time.

After making passport, my mum brought me to facial because I wanted to clean my super duper dirty face zzz I wish I can go for facial every month but still the same problem, power m limited -,- Aiks!

♥ Holiday begin

今天是考试的最后一天. 或许是最后一科吧... 我都没心读书. 很努力地想认真, 想背东西, 可是却做不到 :( 所以今天的考试我45分钟就出来了. 我是真的尽力了, 能写的我都写了, 但大部分都是靠自己的逻辑写出来的, 希望改考卷的那位是个好心人, 会给我一些同情分. 考完后整个人轻松了, 虽然还是会担心自己的成绩, 但我也不能做什么, 我暂时不想了. 我只想好好享受我的假期 ;) 晚上跟婷还有叉烧到chatz room喝茶, 在那玩叠叠乐. 原本没输的我竟然在最后一场输了. 叉烧最开心因为他说没看我输过, 在我玩时一直打扰我, 一直期待着我输 == 我不管, 我要玩过! lol

♥ Cherish

今天是考试的第二天, 考的是法文. 读的不出, 没读的却出到完. 真气人! 不过算了吧... 有哪次不是这样 -,- 考完试了就当然要轻松下嘛... 麻将是我的选择, 而且我还蛮久没打了耶. 一打起麻将真是停不了手, 我都忘了我是打了多久. 哈哈! 晚上跟朋友们到feeling cafe聚一聚, 真的好久没这样一班一起喝茶了. 好怀念以前的日子, 以前总爱玩到两三点才回家. 现在读书了, 以前的自由也没了. 就算出去也很早就回家, 要不然又得挨骂了. 唉 ~ 是我要的自由太多, 还是你们给的自由有限? :(

♥ Brainless people

今天是考试的第一天, 考的是我不喜欢的历史 - tamadun islam zzz 还是跟往常一样, 我不要求多, 只要及格就好. 好啦... 过了就不提了. 今天呀... 我家进贼. 而我呢... 竟然眼睁睁地盯着那贼把旧的车电池拿走. 我不知道我为何没喊他, 或许是他拿着一封信吧, 我很好奇他到底要干嘛. 人家看贼喊贼, 我看贼却喊妈妈 -,- 真是笨吖! 现在的贼真是越来越猖狂, 光天化日之下也敢偷东西. 又不是断手断脚, 干嘛不去做工赚钱而要做贼偷东西?! 真是败类! 愿你得到你该有的报应, 而且是ASAP! 然后晚上跟婷还有叉烧到Tesco Selayang, 一辆摩托也不知怎么搞的, 又没撞到他反而在那边骂人bodoh. 干你娘的! 你以为你自己很聪明哦?! 要骂人就在车上骂, 驾着摩托在那骂人, 你的嘴型就出卖你了. 脾气好的不会跟你计较, 脾气不好的你可能睡医院了! BODOH!!! 原本打算买枕头和盒子, 结果都没适合的, 然后就到oldtown喝茶, 然后回家.